i feel lousy

i need to break out of my comfort zone.
i hate myself for being so fickle minded, for giving up things halfway, for not being good at anything, for not sticking on to things for long, for being afraid of trying out new stuffs, for being a useless person who always backs out and cannot decide anything for myself.
i hate myself for being unable to end a conversation well, for being lousy at rejecting people, for being unsociable when i have to make friends alone, for being lousy at comforting people with words, for being skeptical when people are just trying to be nice.

WHAT DO I REALLY WANT.

and so, i'm fighting this, all alone.

(i'm just ranting k i'm fine)